I’m going to be transparent here for a moment. Not in the disappearing transparent kind of way. Some days I wake up and I feel like I’ve got the world on my shoulders. I feel like I need to solve all of the world’s problems. Right now. I need to solve all of my own problems. Right now. And if that doesn’t happen I fret. I fret and I fret and I fret.

I begin to fret about things that just don’t matter. I think that maybe, just maybe a moment of clarity will come along and I’ll have it figured out. That today is the day that I will solve all the world’s problems. Right?!?

No. So life doesn’t go this way. It doesn’t matter how long I fixate or FRET on an issue it doesn’t go away. The answers do not come, the problem is not solved. Hmph.

I like to say that this is just the way God made me. I learned that from my son, Keegan, who is now five. Keegan, bless his sweet heart, moves at a speed slightly slower than mine. Okay, dramatically slower than me. I rush about. I rush from here to there. Sleep in until the very last minute and then rush. I rush here and there and everywhere. Keegan does not. Keegan likes to take his time. He’s really not in a hurry for anything, at any time, for any reason.

I remember one day a couple of years ago I’m rushing around getting the kids ready to get out the door and I said to Keegan, “son, you are sooo slow.” To his reply, “mama, this is the way God made me.” Wow.

So I’m the mama that God made. And  he made my personality to be what it is. And then he gave me my son that has taught me new lessons on life. A personality quite the opposite of mine, that spends more time in the details, and not so much time fretting and rushing about. How about that.

So I’m going to attempt to follow Keegan’s lead. I’m not saying that I’ll be successful, but I’m going to try my hardest. I do find that when I fill those spaces in my mind — with things like Craft Hope — that are typically reserved for fretting, the fretting subsides.

I will try to not fret about the malware on the Craft Hope site. And the fact that the site is toast and has to be reinstalled. I will try to not fret about the fact that I deleted the sound driver on my laptop and don’t know how to fix it. I will try to not fret about people. And how mean they can be. I will try to not fret. I will have faith. I will have faith that things do work out, just not in my timing. I will have faith in things I cannot see. I. Will. Have. Faith.

{Pretty flower pictures compliments of my fawb, Chris. Aka Miss. Chris.}